So all I can say is THANK GOD NANOWRIMO IS OVER. So I wasn’t even CLOSE to 50k, I hadn’t even hit 10k yet lol. However, I’ll take 9,212 words that make a sensible story over the 34k story that didn’t really make sense last year lol. I just didn’t have any time to write this year! But at least I tried, which is the point. Oh well, better luck next year!
I saw that Livejournal had some cute christmas layouts avaliable…actually, this is the only one under featured that I could find that was Christmasy and avaliable for free users *sweat drop* Oh well!
Ok, so it’s finally time to spill my guts to someone other than Haley. Usually when I have a crush I can force myself to get over them in like two weeks or so. I’ve never found it usefull to have crushes…all you do is torture yourself with the fact that you never stand a chance with that person. I’ve avoided having a crush on anyone for *counts* 3 years now and of course, in my FINAL year of highschool, I have to go and fall for someone…and on top of it, its someone that I swore I would never fall for….A JOCK! ok well, my school’s not big on the stereotype and this guy isn’t you’re typical jock type personalilty anyway, but still, it defeats the purpose. He plays hockey for any of you that are wondering.
I bought a pack of tarot cards like two years ago or so and I haven’t really touched them in about a year or so. So I pulled them out yesterday and I did a spread and asked if he likes me. I’ll tell you why I asked this question…you see, I kinda stare at him in one of my classes that I share with him…but he’s infront of me but wayyy diagonally (if that made any sense!) so he can’t see me! For the debate on thursday in class, I sat on the opposite side of the room with two of my friends and sat on the counter. I caught him staring at me three times and I caught his eyes like twice. Everytime I looked over, he looked away. Now he could have been staring at K who was sitting right beside me, but if that was the cause, why would I be able to catch his eyes. I asked Haley at lunch why guys stare and she said that he likes me, and I asked Jessi and she said a) he likes you b) its bad c) its daydreaming. I personally think that one of his friends saw me staring and now he’s staring at me trying to figure out why I’m staring at him…*sigh* my life!
I pulled out my tarot cards, did a “the object of your desire” spread and asked if he likes me. It said that he does like me, that there is a chance of romance between us, there is a female presense standing in our way (like a mother (that’s what I thought at first)), it told me what he was like (which from my observations, seems to be true, but I don’t talk to him so I could be wrong -.-) and that at this moment, I can expect to NOT have a date with him. I’m like wtf, you give me all this good information and then that!
I’m sitting here thinking hmmm female presense, maybe his mom? So I looked him up on facebook when I got up this morning, his profile is f-locked BUT in his profile picture, there’s a girl and him kissing! Even if there is a *SMALL* chance of him liking me, that female presense is most likely a girlfriend. *DIES*
See now why I hate crushes? They’re useless and harmfull and all they cause is pain and hurt.
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